So many times I hear people saying, “I don’t deserve you, God.” I’ve never understood that. It seems to be a bit of a pity party. It’s like you look at your life and say, “You’re too good for me. I don’t know why you haven’t abandoned me.” What does that do for self-worth? What does that do for motivation for mission?
I’d like to propose the exact opposite of this mindset. God doesn’t deserve us. I mean, look at us. We’ve got it all together. We’ve put out hundreds of thousands of books on ministry. God has one. We’ve written several blogs about the Church. God doesn’t have a blog. We’ve created innovative worship. God has the Psalms.
We’ve formulated messages to where you can reach people wherever they are in relation to God.
We’ve translated the Bible into almost every language and are working toward having it available in every language.
We’ve written several commentaries about what the Scriptures are really saying.
We’ve built huge churches to bring in thousands of people.
We have denominations for every single taste. Much like that of Baskin Robbins.
We’ve simplified church to an hour long so that it can fit in our busy schedules.
We’ve put out one-page devotionals so we can have accessible spiritual growth.
We’ve made church available online so that you do not have to leave your home.
We’ve done a lot if you look at it. What makes God think that He actually deserves us? When looking at it, we run a pretty tight ship. These are accomplishments of which we should be proud. Look at all that we have done to advance the Kingdom (I mean, we can give praise to God, but we played a pretty key role in all of it).
I fear that we sometimes move toward this mindset. We move toward the mindset that God doesn’t deserve us. But in reality, it’s true.
God doesn’t deserve someone who thinks he/she can fix the Church.
God doesn’t deserve someone who thinks he/she is going to be the next leader of the Church.
God doesn’t deserve someone who thinks he/she is the greatest worship leader.
God doesn’t deserve someone who thinks he/she is the best preacher.
God doesn’t deserve someone who thinks he/she knows the best direction for the Church.
God doesn’t deserve us. He deserves better.
He deserves the woman who gave all of her money to the synagogue.
He deserves the fishermen who left their occupation.
He deserves the prostitute who begs for forgiveness.
He deserves the repentant disciple who previously disowned Him.
He deserves the thief who recognizes His sovereignty.
He deserves much better than us. Many times, He deserves the exact opposite of who we are. So why is it that we are scared to try and become what He deserves? Why is it that we are scared to become “perfect as I am perfect?” Why is it that we are scared to admit we don’t have it all together? To admit that we are sinful? To admit that we are not in a position to lead a church (but that for some reason He still desires to use us)? To admit that we sometimes try to steal His fame? To admit that sometimes we are in the wrong?
Perhaps instead of saying, “God, I don’t deserve you,” we should say, “God, you don’t deserve me.” Because when we understand that concept, I think we begin to understand grace and mercy a little more.